1. |
Benefits of All My Doubt
05:08
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BENEFITS OF ALL MY DOUBT
VERSE I:
I keep feeling the signs
I keep hearing your words
I keep reading the signs
And they remind me of how every time that we talk,
It gets a little bit worse
You’ve got me scratching my head
My mind wanders the earth
My mind wanders the earth
My mind wanders the earth
VERSE II:
You try to manage my thoughts
You try to narrow my words
You micromanage your world
You have to know it all
You have to know it all
You have to have it all
You have to have it all
Hey there, stop!
You’ve got some problems
‘Cause all you see in front of you are just tiny people
CHORUS:
Why can’t you get the bigger picture?
If only you could be looking out and reaching in
To the heart of you, heart of you
I’m getting sick and tired of giving you chances
You’re draining up the benefits of all my doubt
VERSE III:
They keep telling me run
This heartache’s only begun
But if I stick it out, if I stick out
Oh, will you figure it out
Will you figure it out
Oh, could you figure it out
VERSE IV:
Well, you try to narrate the scene
You try to negate the source
And if heaven forbid, all the truth comes out
All the truth comes out
You’ll go grasping for straws,
You’ll go grasping for straws
Hey there, stop!
And see your reflection
Oh, that pretty face of yours can only take you so far
(CHORUS)
BRIDGE:
Everyone around you has a heart
But all your straw bridges have burned apart
‘Cause the lines you’ve crossed have been thin and fine
Now all your shallow ties
Have come undone—-
VERSE V:
Every eggshell I crushed
Every door to you shut
And with no single word
Not a spoken word
All the thoughts in my head
All the pain in my heart
Got the message out
Got the point across
I hope you’ll stop
To see your reflection
‘Cause every action makes a wave
And will drown you someday
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2. |
Certain Sparks
06:00
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CERTAIN SPARKS
Da da da da da dum, da da dum
Da da da da da dum, da dum
VERSE I:
Oh, the sky is gray today
I’m driving home
Listening to the radio
And your song comes on
Certain sparks of your voice catch my ear
Certain sparks of your words touch my soul
Da da da da da dum, da da dum
Da da da da da dum, da dum
VERSE II:
I’ve been watching you here from upstairs
You’ve got your headphones on
Tuning out all the world
And groovin’ to the beat of your own song
Da da da da da dum, da da dum
Da da da da da dum, da dum
CHORUS:
“La la la la la” is all I can sing
“Shoo bee doo ba wa”
My feet are shufflin’
Ain’t no song I write is worth rememberin’
But yours are, but yours are
But yours are, but yours are
Da da da da da dum, da da dum
Da da da da da dum, da dum
VERSE III:
I’ve been hanging around this place for awhile
Singin’ my shoulda-coulda-wouldas out of style
Part of me feels a sense of vulnerability
Not my sort of thing to sing my heart out
In front of watchful eyes
Da da da da da dum, da da dum
Da da da da da dum, da dum
CHORUS:
“La la la la la” is all I can sing
“Shoo bee doo ba wa”
My feet are shufflin’
Ain’t no song I write is worth rememberin’
Da da da da da dum, da da dum
Da da da da da dum, da dum
BRIDGE:
All the insides of my heart in song
Like Prufrock on the beach
VERSE IV:
Hey, I know I am going out of my way
Hey, I know I am well below your league
But I can’t help it, Mr. Radio
When your songs play
I feel I’m singin’ too
Da da da da da dum, da da dum
Da da da da da dum, da dum
CHORUS:
“La la la la la” is all I can sing
“Shoo bee doo ba wa”
My feet are shufflin’
Ain’t no song I write is worth rememberin’
But I hope all of this will turn to something
And if for nothing else, I hope
When you hear this tune,
It’ll make you think of me
Da da da da da dum, da da dum
Da da da da da dum, singin’--
CHORUS:
“La la la la la” is all I can sing
“Shoo bee doo ba wa”
My feet are shufflin’
Ain’t no song I write is worth rememberin’
But yours are, but yours are
OUTRO:
Da da da dum, da da da dum
(Shoo bee doo ba wa)
Da da da dum, da da da dum
(La la la la la)
Da da da dum, da da da dum
(All the insides of my heart in song)
Da da da dum, da da da dum
Like Prufrock on the beach
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3. |
The Looking Glass
04:35
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THE LOOKING GLASS
VERSE I:
There are nights where i find myself staring in the dark
Should I stay or should I stray?
Decisions in the night
For a lifetime of this, is it really worth the fight?
For a midnight of bliss, is it really worth my strife?
Oh, if I could only see…
CHORUS:
Beyond the other side of the looking glass
Would I see things of me that I only see in my dreams?
Could it be? Oh, could it be?
Would it be…? Would it be…?
VERSE II:
I turn around and close my eyes
Pretending you’re not there
And there he is on the other side
He’s got stardust in his eyes
He reaches out with open arms
And extends a tender touch
Oh, if I could only see…
(CHORUS)
BRIDGE:
Broke is my heart, it has split in two parts
(Broken--- Broken----)
Stay or to stray? My heart's broke in two parts.
VERSE III:
Here I stand at this door
I rescind my hand before
I turn around and walk away
Unclear of what’s in store
And so I walk to open arms
Unsure of come what may
Is it love for just today?
Or is this forever more?
Not so sure, not so sure,
But today I close this door
Not so sure, not so sure,
But today I close this door.
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4. |
When You Say
03:43
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WHEN YOU SAY
VERSE I:
At the fork of the road,
This choice is finally mine.
But I am tired, I am torn.
If I go straight my heart will break,
And if I turn the other way,
All my work is thrown away.
But I’ve felt cold and tasted bitter
Deep within my soul,
Promises and dreams he’s shattered
All throughout our time.
Until now, I‘ve seen darkness.
CHORUS I:
But when you say my name,
It’s like the sweetest song I’ve heard.
And when you say, “Please stay”
My heart flutters like a bird.
Oh, no words could speak these moments
Embedded in my soul.
VERSE II:
Letting go of all the years is easier said than done.
Strip away all my fears for the times I’ve turned and run.
Memories of little moments,
Like tiny drops of sun,
Very few and far between,
Chasing time for the next one,
The few and far between.
So I learned to only seek them,
There inside my dreams.
CHORUS II:
But then you say my name,
And it’s like honey in my tea.
And when you say, “Please stay”
A joy comes over me.
Oh, no armies could every stop me
From pouring out my soul.
BRIDGE:
Let go of the fragments
Let go of the pain
Farewell to the past,
I see a light before me.
CHORUS III:
‘Cause when you say my name,
It’s tenderly and kind,
And when you say, “Please stay”
It’s genuinely divine.
To you, my heart I owe thee
For quickening my soul.
My soul--- oh, oh
Quickening my soul.
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5. |
Ambiguous
03:46
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AMBIGUOUS
VERSE I:
I was never good enough
To make it to your heart,
But you led me to think
That someday I could win.
And I have spent the countless years
Convincing myself you were meant for me.
And you just kept it on,
Kept it on.
CHORUS:
Why are you so ambiguous?
Why can’t you just tell me face-to-face?
Confess yourself or break my heart.
Confess yourself or break my heart.
VERSE II:
Sometimes I find myself stuck in time
Into that endless night,
Wrapped inside your love,
And I have spent the countless years
Playing out that memory,
And it just plays on,
It plays on and on.
(CHORUS)
BRIDGE:
Oh, why the distance when I’m waiting for you?
Why the distance when I’m waiting for you?
Oh---
Why are you so ambiguous?
Time has passed and time’s run out for you,
Let the minutes pass and it may fade away.
Oh, let the minutes pass and it may fade away.
Oh, why?
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6. |
Colors
04:14
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COLORS
Verse 1:
When the tears have turned to dust
And the heart has turned to stone
You see love through skeptical
Black and white microscope
Then someone reaches out and holds your hand
Here’s a love that just began
And you both don’t understand
But here’s a love that just began
Chorus 1:
And you see colors for the first time
Blurred scenes come into view
And it’s like meeting yourself for the first time
You see in them missing pieces of you
Verse 2:
Every color has a darker shade
And every love has intricacies
He said to me, “I’ve got something to say,
But Dear, I fear, you may walk away”
“I’ve spent these years running from a painful past
Then I met you and this love began
I want to tie loose ends and just run away
Because with you, new life begins”
Chorus 2:
“I see colors for the first time
My darkness fades and I feel brand new
It’s like seeing myself for the first time
I fill the pieces being here with you”
Verse 3:
Every love has a turning point
To see it through or part their ways
This love of ours is beautiful
A vibrant, bold kaleidoscope
The end is near from your broken past
I’ll hold your hand to other side
Chorus 3:
And you’ll see colors for the first time
Your faded dreams will all come true
And we’ll see ourselves for the first time
Candid, raw, lovely, pure, and true
And we’ll see colors for the first time
Faded dreams will all come true
And we’ll see ourselves for the first time
Candid, raw, lovely, pure, and true
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7. |
Fear of the Echoes
04:40
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FEAR OF THE ECHOES
VERSE I:
Don’t hold my hand
Don’t get close if it’s all in vain
Don’t you dare say “please stay”
If your eyes and mind go astray
CHORUS:
‘Cause I fear all the echoes of the voices
From all of these years
It’s the same, same old song
That I’ve heard from him and him
And him and you
Oh--- oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh--- oh--- oh---
Oh, oh, oh
VERSE II:
You say, “Dear, take it easy,
It’s just your head getting carried away.”
Oh, yes, you’ll hold my hand,
But what muse dances in your mind?
In the dark of the night,
Oh, I know that it isn’t me—
(CHORUS)
BRIDGE:
It’s not your words.
It is the silence, it is the distance
That turns my head.
It’s all your resistance, lack of conviction,
All of the things you’ve swept under the rug.
You’ve kept this in hiding,
Ashamed like an outcast,
Nobody knows of you and me
I hear echoes...
Oh, the echoes...
VERSE III:
Hey, it’s been days.
Why haven’t you called?
I am feeling the pain.
And I sense that she is around you,
You’ve never left her I can see this now.
Oh--- oh, I will always be yours,
But I know you will never be mine.
This is the game I chose to play,
I knew I lost before I even began.
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8. |
I'll Walk on By
04:24
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I'LL WALK ON BY
VERSE I:
You’ve got this swagger when you walk in a room
You’ve got that slick black hair and that die-for stare
But something about the way in which you carry yourself
Makes the nose on your face too big
Boy, check yourself
CHORUS:
No, thanks, I’ll walk on by
Your foolish pride is all there is
It’s all that you have got to show for yourself
The words from your mouth run dry
I’ll walk on by
VERSE II:
You drop your sweet-talk like it’s burning hot
Like I should worship your words and kiss your feet
Perhaps something about the endearing twinkle in my eyes
Makes you think that I am fragile and weak
Get over yourself
(CHORUS)
BRIDGE:
You bite the hand that feeds, asking for more to eat
Fool me once, fool me twice
No more… C’mon…
VERSE III:
The hindsight’s like an old, unread book
Brush off the dust as I begin to read
With every page there is something new
But as I read, I am turned away
No, thanks
(CHORUS)
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9. |
You, Me, and the Duchess
05:31
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YOU, ME, AND THE DUCHESS
Here, in this time, in this moment
Won’t you stay with me?
This way, won’t you stay with me?
Here, in this room, with this crowd
It feels like you and I before the world
You and I, you and I before the world
And I have always walked beside
The darkness of your shadow
Feeling alone, all alone
All alone, feeling alone
A shroud of light hits my face
As you take my hand and turn to the world
Speaking to them, clear as day,
And you say, “She is my queen, she is my queen,
She is my queen, she is my queen,
This is my queen!”
The duchess walked into the room
Wearing your crown and letters
Scarlet and bold, scarlet and bold
Scarlet and bold, scarlet and bold
Scarlet and bold
Your mind went blank
And then you saw these scenes of you
Before the world, throwing their stones
Throwing their stones, throwing their stones
At you, at you, at you, and you fell
Oh, you fell—
You took back your words
No rhyme, no reason
No rhyme, no reason
Now I walk alone, again
Beside your shadow
Never your queen
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10. |
Fly With Me
02:02
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FLY WITH ME
VERSE I:
He tucks the kids in, gives kisses goodnight
He walks on down to the liquor store
A jack and coke in the living room
He watches that show he’s been watching for years
I’ve known him well for a long, long time
I know that jack and coke is not his nightly thing
VERSE II:
So he picks up the phone and asks me,
“Can you talk? Tell me your crazy thoughts
So I don’t go insane.”
But my life’s a whirlwind
No day the same
Always some surprise, but it gets mundane
CHORUS:
And all my crazy dreams are in disarray
I can’t figure them out
But I keep chasing them down
One step forward and I go insane
But one step back and I suffocate
I’ve blocked your words with broken, open wings
But I am soaring now, and I am craving your ground
These tattered wings have flown so much air
Enough for you to breathe
And maybe fly with me
Fly with me, fly with me
Let's fly away
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11. |
All Lines Crossed
05:22
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ALL LINES CROSSED
VERSE I:
Pride got the best of us
If I stab you first, it won’t hurt that much
Marred by our words unkind
All the pillars we built slowly broke away
Into nothing, oh---
CHORUS:
Take these memories and put them into a box
Locked with our heavy hearts
Then throw away all the keys
“Never again,” we said
This line is crossed
VERSE II:
The year went on and we quickly drifted away
To defend myself, I gave my heart away
So blindfully to the next best thing
In naivety, I let him take and strip my soul
Amongst all his pretty lies, he showed me
Who I was, all the best and the worst of me
Self-reflecting to grow
(CHORUS)
VERSE III:
You flew across the sea to take a week away from me
To defend yourself, you gave your heart away
So generously to any batting eye
She took full advantage of all your dreams
She offered her hand and you nearly took the bait
But when the red flags flew, you pulled away
You said, “I know what it’s like to be vindictive and vulnerable,
I’ve learned more about myself than in thirteen years.”
And from this distance, we grow
(CHORUS)
BRIDGE:
And there came a day when the storm had passed
But today is the day when the water is still
Under the bridge, oh---
FINAL CHORUS:
Take these memories and put them into a box
Open the empty book and write again page anew
Set down our heavy hearts and turn again all the keys
Full speed ahead, we tread
For all lines we’ve crossed, oh---
All lines we’ve crossed, oh---
All lines we’ve crossed, oh---
For all lines we’ve crossed
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Jimil-Anne Lompoc, California
Jimil-Anne is a freelance singer-songwriter from Lompoc, CA. She has been moonlighting and singing her "shoulda-coulda-
woulda's" with the piano since 2015.
She will be releasing her debut album "All Lines Crossed” in 2017. She is currently working on her second album, which she hopes to release in 2021.
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